SAMANTHA FOO.
SMURFIE
1T10'06 2T10'07
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Friday, May 19, 2006
Similar in differences,
Different in similarities
Can't wait for tomorrow's Mini Lunchtime Choir Concert & CLIQUE OUT! & Arts week concerto. Tomorrow's going to be a busy day. And a happy day. I really need many happy days to come. I promised to move on, but it takes time. So slowly. And I hate the fact that I crack under pressure. The people in class are so smart even without studying or paying attention in class. & dare I slack off, I'm going downhill.
Benn, if you're reading this, please stop rubbing salt into the already open wound. It hurts ok. I really really am sorry for saying those things I said but maybe it was for the better. I'm also feeling very bad for causing a break in the class ok. I'll make up to the class in due time. Moving on was easy for him but it takes more time for me. I still like him but I have to force myself to move on just so he can breathe. Do you think I'd really be happy if anyone of you guys retained? Let alone him? I know I cannot take back what I said because things had been said and done. So just as all isn't lost yet, let me keep some pride for myself and stop making me feel even worse than I already am. In anycase, give time and it will heal. Just this wound has been opened a few times in the course of healing and its headed for full recovery now.
Ever wondered which hurts most-
Saying something you wished you hadn't,
Or saying nothing and wishing you had.
The answer to that for my story is simple. They both hurt as much. But when you realise that making something up made the person you treasured happier, it helps with the pain. If you told someone you loved them, they might break your heart.But if you hadn't, you might break theirs. Sometimes love is addiction, sometimes it hurts like hell, sometimes you just cannot get enough.
May I just say that although I'm not over him yet, I'm moving on. So for the benefit of me, please do me the favour of not talking about him&me, or assuming that my life is revolving around him that whatever mood I have is the cause of him, because its not.
The truth to that deliberate lie, can't it just pass me by.
& I'm lovin' it
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