4am wake up calls & little chatters behind.

Friday, May 12, 2006

Love that went astray,
won't you find your way home

Just give me time to get over him. Let my heart ache this once more. I did what I did yesterday because it was just wrong to keep it in. Its settled now. I feel as if I said goodbye to him, forever. At least he did reply. Its going to be a really rough road to drive on, especially when we're classmates. I keep thinking of things I don't want to. Or rather, people I don't want to. Or maybe just the person I don't want to. I have to forget & forgive if I can. The best way for me to move on, I think, is if he could just stand there and let me vent my frustrations at him. He doesn't give a shit, so why should I? I'm getting sick and tired of his attitude. And he knows its been hard for me because of it. Yet he still does it. I really can't stand it already!! He just makes me so mad! He's breaking my heart right down the middle, tearing it in halves again, then shattering them it all over. He played with my heart, then chucked it aside. What the Fuck did I do to deserve this? I'm foolish for clinging onto him. And I'm not growing any smarter at all. And who is He to recieve my love? He wanted us to Give&Take. But what good is it if all thats happening is me giving him attention, the time-out and the break up. And all he did was take my sunshine and my energy away? Its his Fucking fault, and he knows it. Yet he still does it. Is that how a guy is supposed to treat a girl? All I ask is just for him to aknowledge my pressence. Not even to embrace it. I guess the little greetings and drop-by smses are just too much for me to ask of him. I don't want another guy. Now, I want him. Why is he so stubborn!!! I'm actually starting to hate him. But I guess my love for him overrides and superceeds the hatred. I'm just a goon. I really needed this class chalet. My 4B class chalet. Its really doing me good. Thanks guys. As for Boris, I wish him the best, when I beat him up on monday.

It's Your Fucking fault & You know it. Yet You're not doing anything about it. Thanks for ruining my life. I hope you're happy. Cos' you're not going to be for long. I'll be haunting every of your dreams.

Thank You world for Fucking my life. I'll be sure to Fuck yours back.

& I'm lovin' it
23:50

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