SAMANTHA FOO.
SMURFIE
1T10'06 2T10'07
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005
over cloud nine
devastation at first
as she made her way down school , she was wondering if they;d be at school too . she wasnt too sure . she reached at twelve thirthy . went to dover , drew money . she dabbled on the thought that they might be there . she hesitated . oh how she wanted to go in to check , but her legs kept walking . as she crossed the road , her mind was set straight on crossing the road and nothing else . well , when she looked ahead , a familiar but intimidating face appeared . just as the movies are , they walked pass each other . she didnt know about him , but she felt her heart drop thousands of feet , obeying the laws of gravity . but she held her head high , and kept walking . but that one glance made her lose her concentration . coincidentally or not , the song playing on her reliable ipod nano was a song that could , would , and had dampen her mood even further . she was at the frequent study room in her school , trying to do those supposedly at her finger tips math questions . but no , she couldnt even do one . it just sank into her that it really was over . no matter how much she turned to look out that window , he whouldt know what her heart wanted . utter disappointment , sheer devastation .
sugarrush
sometimes fate can really play a fool with someone insignificant like her . as they returned to school , went into that strategic place to study , she;d follow them in . she;d study with them . and most of all , she;d study with him . its common that jokes were cracked and fun was made . she;d never evade it , especially from them . as usual , she;d suffer the most from it . from him having intentions or her having designs , all these assumptions and makeups never seem to stop rolling in . but instead of feeling vengeful , she feels happy , delighted , and content . she likes it when this kind of fun is made somehow . it lifts her up . when she walks away , they;d go to her scripts and write fake messages of patching up , making out< . but even if it wasnt true , the thought of it makes her smile . then , when they;d mock at her , she glanced at him , to see his reaction . and today , for the first time , she noticed how he;d giggle at those lame jokes . she thought all along she was the only one who;d laugh secretly and minimumly at him . but this time she was wrong . and for once , being wrong was right . she left with a cheerful as ever heart . there was one thing she wanted to do but couldnt : scream .
the common delimma
and now she wonders and cracks her brain just thinking if she should get him something for tommorrow . his birthday . and if so , what to ? so she messaged ben . the 'mature' one . and to her awe , his replies were far from how he would message back . just by a snap of her fingertips , she;d know it was ed , the ego one . and they were having dinner . although she feared he would know she was getting something , she didnt really care if he did , just that if he did , what would he think . she just doesnt want to feel disappointed again . so if god may , please grant that all actions are in favour of her . she so hopes , she so prays . so god , if you may .
& I'm lovin' it
20:17
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