SAMANTHA FOO.
SMURFIE
1T10'06 2T10'07
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Saturday, October 29, 2005
attitude of a divadashing , smashing .
tears on her pillow
as the headings suggests , she cried herself to bed last night . its strange how fate twists , one minute its full of suprises , the other its just another mundane routine of yesterday . sometimes she wishes that she had listened to him , take him seriously . but then again , how could she when he didnt even treat her the same way . all out to poke fun at her , all out to seek comfort and pleasure at her pride;s disposal . and she let it happen , it was fun wasn;t it . at least she confirmed her status with them then . but nothing in this torturous world is as good as it seems . she;d burst one day , and they knew it was too much . but that renewed her friendship with them . and she was somewhat happy . but happy didnt last . all his logics that only stood for what it meant literally , lead her on to thinking that they were just the templated jokes out to spike her - again . she continued to do what she had been doing with those reasonable - to - a - certain - extent logics , just obeying them for a short while , then off to her own freestyle attitude again . guess she pushed the limit and formed a barrier in that . after that one blow , everything seemed ablur , she had always been the one waiting to reconcile , apologising , stepping up . countless times . maybe its a one-sided thing . maybe its always been her wishful thinking . she;d go out with them , hoping for that right time to come , for that eclipse to appear , for that split second that would seem like forever . to no avail . she should stop now . she really should . but its childish after a while . this kind of behaviour would be like what a primary school ammature would do , not what a mature secondary teenager would . so she;ll leave it as that , let fate play her . she is tired to play around with fate .
attitude of that lost diva
then she asks herself again , what happened to that smashing colourful she once knew . what happened to that dashing sexy she once was ? those were spoilt by a long term process , her sefl esteem crushed , not only by the lost of a precious unmentionable , but through her peers regardless of dover or clementi . and now she as to step up , to that once burning inferno . she;s gonna come back .
& I'm lovin' it
11:45
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