SAMANTHA FOO.
SMURFIE
1T10'06 2T10'07
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Friday, June 30, 2006
If I tend towards him,
but never cross his path,
that makes him the asyptote
& me, his wrath.
This morning I awoke from slumber with his name hanging at my lips. Twice. As my eyelids swung open, twice was the number of times I called out his name. The next words that came out of my withered, dry lips were: Shit, today's going to be a bad day. But as I dragged my soul off the mattress, and looked into the mirror with that familiar over proportionate silhouette back at me, as I reached for the hairbrush to brush my mid-length hair, for 20 full minutes, I failed to comprehend that smile on my face when all that was in my mind was the obvious. Getting out of bed, getting dressed, washing up, common were the thoughts in my mind as any other day, but far from uniformity was the feeling inside of me. Strange, it was. Queer.
To say I love you is a dangerous feat. Because the time we spent together was surely not enough for me to conclude that. So maybe, just maybe, I just like you very very much.
Qn: Why do you still wear the necklace he gave you everyday, even when you know it's already over & can never be saved?
Ans: I wasn't the one who called for the break. All I know is I still like him. I never stopped liking him since the very first I did. I told him I'd wait, & whether he believes it or not, my words still stand for themselves. Every smile he makes, is enough for me to last for the day. I've lasted this long, longing for every bit of him. If heaven was kind, I'd have him in due time. The necklace just lies on my chest as all that I have left from before. That's all there is to it.
The funny fuzzy feelings still remain.
The butterfly effect, highly lethel.
& I'm lovin' it
18:34
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Beneath the cOvers of Rich & gold,
my Insanity ceases to so die off a Stranger.
The word, emo, is overrated.
People treat emotional people like a different species just because they have more feelings.
& you make me seem as if I am an emo kid just because I care about us.
Would you rather an unfeeling robot?
How would you ever know how emo people feel?
If you were hurt they way they were, then you'd wonder why people think you're emo.
Emo, a word overused, a word splashed black, a word people fear of being labelled by.
So what if someone is emo?
So what.
When you wake everynight, does the sense of regret ever haunt you?
Or does your stomach get attacked by butterflies when the scent of my hair lingers around you?
And do your fingers feel lonely and empty, in need of mine to make it whole?
Are you resentful, do you get annoyed?
If you could turn back time, would you go back boy?
When you realise that it's me you should run to,
From the melancholy of the lost of love too.
When the words that you say pierce your heart as in mine.
If you played on replay our story would be fine.
Your hands to my hips, my face to your lips.
Don't you wish everyday that I'd be your sunshine.
Again.
The guilt inside you creeps all over your back
As memories we shared stroll into your mind.
Like all the truama was surreal,
only if it were surreal.
Regardless of the degree of helplessness you encounter,
Or the magnitude of hurt caused to your heart,
Or the extremes of acceptance of others.
Love is a kind of trust, that brings you closer to my side.
When you thought it'll all be OK when you next see me.
Didn't it feel disgusting, how the silence fell.
As you heard me call his name
And look into his eyes,
The rush of new found jealousy arises, like you were never.
Finally the gush of emotions fill your heart of stone.
You don't have to conclude if staying or leaving hurts the most- they both hurt as bad.
Having to see me everyday in itself is a chore so hard to fufil.
But when the surge of heat burns you up inside
With the acceleration of your heartrace
And the gentle warmth with eventual fuzz,
The worth of even being in my pressence superceeds the love.
You love me too much to take me back.
I love you enough not to demand you back.
& I've become your lullaby
As you to mine.
How ugly the sight of your eyes as you awake.
How torturous the feeling inside you when you wake to a lie.
Stop this cycle that never ceases to stop.
During the day, everything's OK.
Come night fall, unbecomings of us forces into my mind.
My head is heavy, as if I'm already drunk.
I want you back, please come back.
& I'm lovin' it
17:02
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
Send someone to love me,
I need to rest in arms
Hello Stranger, I love You still.
Hello Lover, I hate You now.
Hello Friend, we're nothing more.
Hello Boyfriend, You couldn't last.
Hello Classmate, we'll always be.
Hello Bestfriend, so we thought.
Hello Fling, dangerous indulgence.
Hello Ex, it's Your lost.
Hello Partner, I miss You.
Hello Cheapthrill, I genuinely crave.
Hello Cute, & never not.
Hello Admirer, I admire too.
Hello Coward, just let loose.
Hello Addict, addict me.
Hello Selfish, please grow up.
Hello Liar, bullshitting Yourself.
Hello Virgin, I'll take You.
Hello Indecisive, I detest that.
Hello Unfeeling, my sleepless nights.
Hello Joker, best at it.
Hello Good-looking, You were not.
Hello Sleepy, You're so fine.
Hello Sweet, got me easy.
Hello Heartmelt, my essential.
Hello Mistake, people say that.
Hello stranger, I love You still.
& I'm lovin' it
19:53
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I wish I had a little red box to put my JESUS in
& take him out & MUACK MUACK MUACK
& put him in back again
I wish I had a big black box to put BIG BORIS in
& take him out & STOMP STOMP STOMP
& throw him in the bin
Get over it already
& I'm lovin' it
00:21
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Sunday, June 18, 2006
Get those honeystars away from me!
I stopped, cos time won't stop for me.
I walked, cos I had to catch up.
I ran, cos this shit was chasing me away.
But now I fly, because I have your wings beneath my wings.
& I still can't fly, because you've tied my wings so tight they're starting to bleed.
Stop this already, it's killing me.
Just take those memories away, they are the ones keeping me hanging on.
So thanks for those 10 days, you've given me the stars to play with.
Too bad it had to stay short, but it was good as it lasted.
Now I love honeystars more than I love you, but not more than I loved you.
Remember, that once we had this. & we still have it, if you want it. More than those 4am wake up calls & little chatters behind, the risk-taking runaways to the grandstand, those days you were sure you wanted to be with me. Those days you weren't sure you should be with me. Those walks for hours and empty conversations, those glances I stole when you knew I was. Those 3 glances that brought you closer. The bus rides, the chitter chatter, the smses, your face, my face, ours.
The spaces between my fingers still remain yours to fill
& I'm lovin' it
20:00
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Let your love light baby
& burn those bridges down under
I had a very bad dream last night.
I felt Fuck when I woke up I didn't want to get out of bed.
I seriously have to study harder or I'll flunk mid terms.
I want someone who'll sit at the beach from sunset through sunrise
I want someone who'll sit all the rollar coasters and scream his lungs out with me
I want someone who'll sit at the playground and talk his heart out with me
I want someone who'll slip his fingers into mine when I'm crossing the road
I want someone who'll talk on the phone all night with me
I want someone who'll let go some of his dailies to spend time with me
I want someone who'll want me to let go some of my dailies to spend time with him
I want someone who'll make me laugh & cry because he loves me
I want someone who'll walk me home everytime we go out unless I don't want him to
I want someone who'll stroll for hours talking about nothing
I want someone who'll message me a goodnight message everynight
I want someone who'll let me lie on his shoulder when I'm tired
I want someone who'll wait for me when I have to leave school late
I want someone who'll appreciate me waiting for him when he has to leave school late
I want someone who'll study with me at the airport
I want someone who'll watch the aeroplanes depart and arrive at the viewing gallery
I want someone who'll take the train from one end of the line to the other and back again
I want someone who'll love me more than I love him
I want that someone to be You
It's not about whether You deserve my love or not. Can't you see that right now, You're the only person I want to give my love to. It doesn't matter who I'll be with next time or how my ex-boyfriends treated me, because I like You for who You already are and not whether what You do to me is deserving or not.
I'm so afraid to talk to You now, because I know for sure that I'll start liking You again. & for me to like You, knowing that we can never be together again, just hurts me deep. So is it better that I just stay away?
Fly me to the moon & let me play among the stars
Let me breathe the air of Jupiter & Mars
In other words please be true
In other words I love you
Won't You be that someone for me again.
& I'm lovin' it
20:14
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Sunday, June 11, 2006
I lost my Boyfriend to lan
Rain, rain go away
come again another day
Rain, rain go away
So Sammy can study today
Haha, it's official. BENJAMIN FOO SECK TUAN IS SUPER UBER CUTE!
& I'm lovin' it
14:11
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Saturday, June 10, 2006
Only October knows, &
always is
Karo was right when she said I'd take the quiz.
(:
(1) I am Dying to watch World Cup.
(2) Yesterday I was Watching World Cup.
(3) Maybe I should Sleep & hope to dream myself watching the match, better yet, watch the match at Germany itself.
(4) I love Roses & Diamonds.
(5) I don't understand Why he had to do this to me.
(6) I lost my Boyfriend to lan
(7) My girl/boyfriend is SHERRI ANNE BERNADETTE CHOO HUI YI now.
(8) People say I am like a bimbo, which I obviously am not
(9) Love is the best thing that could happen to anybody.
(10) Somewhere, someone is sitting on the toilet bowl thinking why his shit had to come at this time when a goal is being scored. He must feel like what he's emmitting out of his anus.
(11) I will always club a max of once a month.
(12) Forever is the word that comes with 'together' on those necklaces & chains.
(13) I never want to have to go broke ever again.
(14) I think the current President is Goh Chok Tong? Or was he the prime minister?
(15) When I woke up in the morning I wanted to do some math before tuition but ended up falling back asleep on the couch.
(16) Life is full of unpredictability
(17) My past is essential for me to move on also dragging me from moving on
(18) I get annoyed when People try to boss me around.
(19) Parties are for All the happy people in the world
(20) I wish my prince charming on a charming white horse will pick me up one day & bring him to his enchanting castle & marry me to him (& his riches of course)
(21) My pet is are.
(22) Kisses are the worst when The guy just had garlic or something was stuck in his teeth.
(23)Today 6 hours straight of math.
(24) Tomorrow I'm going to Make sure I study History
(25) I really want to travel Europe this year.
(26) I have low tolerance for people who Eat noisily & disgustingly
(27) If I had a million dollars I would be the best slimming method any wallet ever had.
& I'm lovin' it
21:32
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The sunrise never beats sunset
As I awoke from slumber today, Mr Bennett Ong greeted me with a message:
ha i had a dream that me you edwin and jlee went to ghim moh. and that reminded me of our outing. so when are you free?
& !!! GERMANY
& a hundred bucks in my pocket!!!
These things just made my day. Thank you.
Now I can't put my finger as to whether I've given up or I've let it go.
& I'm lovin' it
10:47
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Thursday, June 08, 2006
Until she caresses your skin,
the summer skies remain
& I'm still waiting, as I said I would have.
I miss you HUIZHEN
I miss you TSE MIN
I miss you BENNETT
I miss you MINDY
I miss you PAUL
I miss you ALVAN
I miss you ZENG
I miss you ISABEL
I miss you MATHIEU
I miss you DARREN
I miss you JIA WEI
I miss you MS LEE
I miss you CLAIRE
I miss you BRENDAN
I miss you EILEEN
I miss you AMANDA TEE
I miss you SZE
I miss you JACINTA TAN
I miss you BENJAMIN LIM
I miss you BENJAMIN SEE
I miss you NICHOLAS SCORPIAN
I miss you TERRENCE
I miss you NATALINA
I miss you RACHEL
I miss you EVANGELINE
I miss you CLEMENT
I miss you SOOBERT
I miss you TUCK YEW
I miss you most, BORIS
I DON'T miss you PURSELYN
I DON'T miss you SHERRI
I DON'T miss you NESS
I DON'T miss you KARO
I DON'T miss you JERD
& I don't know why. Haha.
So wear this necklace on me once more, & I swear it will never come off again
& I'm lovin' it
17:13
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Wednesday, June 07, 2006
You just made my days brighter. Thank you.
& I'm lovin' it
19:33
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Colour me blind with black & white
I'd still be able to see you in red.
01/ I absolutely loved today with KAROLYN. BF no.1 remember Karo? Yes you do. XMEN was aite. Not so bombastic, but it rocked nevertheless. However, there were these 2 idiots behind who talked so loudly. One had to pick a call & he just started ranting in hokkien. Disturbing. & the next hour or so was spent on the train to Changi. Studied a little then
02/ Went to send juniors off to Czech.
03/ The highlight of the day, though, was this:
Sam > Hey boris, its been a while. So i wanted to drop this msg by to say hi. Anyhow, hope you're enjoying your holidays :D
2 hours later, when I coincidentally went to the toilet & left my phone for Karo to fiddle
Boris Choy> I'm doing fine:) yeah. Hows yours? Haha.
(: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (:
I'm just glad.
& I'm lovin' it
22:44
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I dreamt of him last night
& it made me smile when I woke up
I dreamt that Jia Wei & I became friends again. Close friends for that matter. As in, we were not friends in the dream still & we worked things out. I was delighted when I woke up because I know this would be a happy day. It just put a wide grin on my face when I woke up (: & I dreamt of secondary school people. Like Theron. Hahaha. Ok, so that was my dream. Yay.
I'm off to meet Sherri & Jerd at Jurong Library now. To get Karo's jacket. Then I'm FINALLY going to watch XMEN III!!!! With Karo at JP. Then we're going down all the way to the other side, the AIRPORT to study. Because juniors are going off to Czech for choir competition so I have to go send them off at 7pm. So Karo, BEING THE SWEET GIRL SHE ALREADY IS (you know I don't mean it (: haha) is sooo kind to accompany me & study too. Ahahaha. I <3 you Karo.
People to go out with in June:
/ Edwin
/ Sirong (my, he looks so good now I couldn't take my eyes off him)
/ Jia Wei
/ Bennett
/ Bushy
/ Karo
/ Zhen
/ Tse
/ Min
/ Ness
/ Sherri
/ Jerd
/ Claire
/ Benjy
/ Eileen
/ Brendan
/ Purse
/ Isabel
/ I wanna go out with Boris but that's impossible
Brews with Anne Choo yesterday was Fab. Thanks babe for 'studying' with me. Loves you babe. Sherri's my Boyfriend now. She's my BF. Haha.
& I'm lovin' it
11:03
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Monday, June 05, 2006
Lying close to you
Hearing your heart beating
You know I didn't mean the things I said, the cold stare at you.
You know I can't bear to see you hurt.
I know I still care dearly for you the same.
So shall we stop playing this game,
it's killing me, I can't find the cure for this pain.
You don't understand why I can't look in your eye anymore.
You don't want to even be with me.
I could never see you the way I used to.
Or talk to you & tug at you,
& feel your breath just above my forehead too.
You probably forgotten all about us & our times.
You probably wish you don't know me.
I, however have you etched inside so deep.
& I'm glad fate got us to meet,
Under the covers dreaming when I'm asleep.
You just have to know I'll be there waiting at the end.
You just have that unmatchable charm.
I just want you to be happy every day.
That smile on your face may I say,
Puts a smile on my face too in every way.
& I'm lovin' it
19:10
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I miss you, I'm hating this
& I miss us
I caught the KARO cold. I'm doing quizzes. MANY MANY (:
i think my posts need a bit more colour right? hahas =D
quizzes ! (:
* You can only say YES or NO.
** You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments and asks!
1. Taken a picture naked? YES
2. Painted your room? YES
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? YES
4. Drove a car? YES
5. Danced in front of your mirror? YES
6. Had a crush? YES
7. Been dumped? YES
8. Stole money from a friend? NO
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? YES
10. Been in a fist fight? YES
11. Snuck out of your house? YES
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? YES
13. Been arrested? NO
14. Made out with a stranger? NO
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? YES
16. Left your house without telling your parents? YES
17. Had a crush on your neighbour? YES
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? YES
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? YES
20. Seen someone die? NO
21. Been on a plane? YES
22. Kissed a picture? YES
23. Slept in until 3PM? YES
24. Love or miss someone right now? YES
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? YES
26. Made a snow angel? NO
27. Played dress up? YES
28. Cheated while playing a game? YES
29. Been lonely? YES
30. Fallen asleep at school? YES
31. Been to a club? YES
32. Felt an earthquake? NO
33. Touched a snake? NO
34. Ran a red light? YES
35. Been suspended from school? NO
36. Had detention? NO
37. Been in a car accident? NO
38. Hated the way you look? YES
39. Witnessed a crime? NO
40. Pole danced? YES
41. Been lost? YES
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? YES
43. Felt like dying? YES
44. Cried yourself to sleep? YES
45. Sang karaoke? YES
46. Sucked your thumb? YES
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? YES
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? NO
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? YES
50. Kissed in the rain? NO
51. Sing in the shower? YES
52. Made love in a park? NO
53. Had a dream that you married someone? YES
54. Glued your hand to something? YES
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? NO
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? NO
57. Been a cheerleader? NO
58. Sat on a roof top? NO
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? NO
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? YES
61. Played chicken? NO
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? YES
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? YES
64. Broken a bone? YES
65. Been easily amused? YES
66. Laugh so hard you cried? YES
67. Mooned/flashed someone? NO
68. Cheated on a test? YES
69. Forgotten someone's name? YES
70. Slept naked? NO
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? NO
72. Performed on stage? YES
73. Blacked out from drinking? NO
74. Played a prank on someone? YES
75. Gone to a late night movie? YES
76. Made love to anything not human? NO
77. Failed a class? YES
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? NO
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? NO
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? NO
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? YES
82. Thrown strange objects? YES
83. Felt like killing someone? YES
84. Thought about running away? YES
85. Ran away? YES
86. Did drugs? NO
87. Had detention and not attend it? NO
88. Dumped anyone? YES
89. Made a parent cry? YES
90. Cried over someone? YES
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? NO
92. Dated someone more than once? YES
93. Have/had a dog? YES
94. Own an instrument? YES
95. Been in a band? YES
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? NO
97. Broken a cd? YES
98. Shot a gun? YES
99. Dated a married person of the opposite sex? NO
100. Written a love letter? YES
That's one done, many to come (:
Name 3 things in your purse/BAG/pocket :
#wallet
#NEW PUMA JACKET
#math file
Name 3 things you do when you're really stressed:
#cry
#swear
#lock myself in my room, start screaming & throwing things around
Name 3 favorite places to shop :
#zara
#far east
#guess
Name 3 places you go on a daily basis:
#the fridge
#my cupboard
#the couch
Name 3 favorite fruits:
#orange
#watermelon
#papaya
Three names you go by:
#Samantha Foo Shi-Yin
#Sam (Foo)
#Yanny < family calls me that
Three things you are wearing right now:
#white tee
#black shorts
#skin coloured undies
Who is in the house with you?
# Mum, at the dining.
# Dad, in his bed
# Bro, in his bed
# Maid, in her bed
# Dog, in his bed
# Dog, in his bed
# Me, at the comm
Who did you get this survey from?
# THE PERSON WHO GOT ME QUIZ INFECTED, KAROLYN GANNNN!
Who are you thinking about right now?
# Brendan Chai
Who did you last talk to on the phone?
# Brendan Chai
Whose birthday is next?
# Goh Song Yao. 9th June.
Who do you wish you were with right now?
# The Boring guy.
Where do you live?
# Ulu Pandan Rd. Its called Ulu for a reason.
Where is your pillow?
# Awaiting my royal head to rest on it. ON THE BED?
Where are your parents?
# at home
Where do you sleep?
# My queen sized queen like bed.
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
# Squash zonal, individual event.
Where is the last place you took a ride to?
# Thompson plaza, just now (:
Where in your house are you?
# Err. I don't know what part this is called. Its not the dining, living. So it's the studying? Haha.
What was the last thing you ate?
# TOMYAM CUP NOODLES!
What color shirt are you wearing?
# white
What is the closest item near you that is black?
# My shorts. Close enough to hug my tree trunk thighs.
What is your favorite color?
# GOLD
What kind of surgery have you had?
# Broke my arm, so had to fix it back.
What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?
# shorts.
What is the last movie you watched?
# SERENDIPITY. Just an hour ago at Claire's with Brendan, Mark, John, Talun & Ashley.
What song do you currently hear?
#Fart, my mum.
What was your dream last night?
# I started smoking. Boris was smoking too, with Gene, Alvin & Ben. I managed to take a puff & stepped on the cigeratte, & was devastated that Boris started smoking too.
When did you start school?
# 3, at child care.
When is your birthday?
# TWELVE APRIL!!!!!!
When did you last go to the mall?
# Today, with mummy. Shopping Spreeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
When was the last time you bought a pair of pants?
# about 3 weeks ago from Zara, 2 shorts.
When did you last burn a candle?
# Qibin's birthday!
When did you last see your dad?
# 45mins ago.
When did you last see your mom?
# She's right beside me.
When did you last see your best friend?
# MANY MANY BEST FRIENDS. SO I DON'T KNOW.
When did you last see someone you love ?
# 29th May this year. At chem & history lect.
SOMEMORE!!!
THE WHO'S
=) Who is in the room with you?
- My 2 dearies. Plenty & Bounty Foo. Plus that moth on the wall.
=) Who was the last person to IM you?
- Karolyn Gan
=) Who are you thinking about now?
- Boris
=) Who did you last talk to on the phone.
- Brendan Chai
=) Who's house did you last go to?
- CLAIRE CHUA's
=) Who do you wish were here right now?
- Purse, Isabel, Byron, Jerome, Sherri, Ness, Min, Karo, Babes, Zhen, Tse, Lumpy John, Brendan, Claire, Eileen, Sirong, Edwin, Bennett, Bushy, Jiawei. (& Boris)
=) Who gets on your nerves the most from your school?
- The person who doesn't go by the name James.
THE WHERE'S
=) Where do you go to school?
- Catholic Junior College
=) Where is your phone?
- Right hand side, beside the mouse
=) Where is your mom?
- Sleeping beside my dad.
=) Where do you sleep?
- good question.
=) Where do you shop the most?
- I realised its Zara &/or far east.
=) Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
- Squash zonals, individual category
=) Where in your room are you?
- right bottom corner
THE WHAT'S
=) What was the last thing you ate?
- Tomyam Cup Noddles
=) What is the closest item near you that is blue?
- The Prolink Hurricane 9000W internet connection
=) What do you like about school?
- CHOWING, Cool friends, 1T08:01, 1T10:02, Fruits & Juices, Yong Tau Foo, OMG THE GRANDSTANDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!
=) What are you wearing on your feet?
- Its bare naked
=) What instant messaging service do you use?
- Msn 7.0?
=) What is your favorite color?
- Gold, Navyblue, Black, HOT RED
=) What is your favorite website?
- youlovesam.blogspot.com < that's why you love sam.
=) What is your favorite shoe brand?
- NIKE hands down.
=) What do you wear more; jeans or skirts?
- skirts.
THE WHY'S=)
Why do we have to go to school?
- To learn to be creative & critical thinkers, so we can further our studies & become sucessful individuals to help our economy grow, so that Singapore can compete in the global market & her society can benefit from the robust economy & lead better & upgraded lifestyles. Thank you.
=) Why are your best friends your best friends?
- They catch my vibe & I catch theirs. Simple as ABC! Haha. & I love them MUCHIES!!
Be honored> clique ditseys 10 girls Ed&gang Clement
=) Why do the people on the news repeat the same stuff over?
- Because they know people don't listen.
=) Why is everyone obsessed over the Olympics?
- Because they have to watch Sam win every single thing!! & they never get tired of it. HAHA.
THE WHEN'S
=) When did you start school?
- 3 years old.
=) When is your birthday?
- 12 APRIL 1989
=) When did you last go to the mall?
- Just now, Sunday afternoon. With Mummy. Shopping Spreeeee!
=) When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
- 3 weeks ago
=) When were you last at school?
- Choir + Hist lect + Chem lect. 29 May 06.
=) When did you last see your dad?
- An hour ago before he hit the sheets.
I'M NOT TIRED YET SO, MORE!!!!! (promise it's the last for today)
S W E A R - T R U T H F U L L Y
Do you love someone?
^ Yes, very much.
Does he/she know it?
^ Don't think so.
Simple or complicated?
^Complicated, but quite simple too.
IN - THE - PAST - MONTH - HAVE - YOU
Bought something?
^ YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES! HOW NOT TO?!?!?!
Gotten sick?
^ YES. All kinds of sickness. From viral to sore throat to lovesickness.
Been hugged?
^ (: yes !
Talked to an ex?
^ yes.
Missed someone?
^ Many times yes, the same someone.
Failed a test?
^ Every one!
Ate cereal?
^ Just at Claire's. I LOVE HONEY STARRRRRSSSSS!
Gotten your hair cut?
^ I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO GROW BACK. CUT?!?!?!?!?!
Nervous habits?
^ Yes. Everytime I saw Boris I wouldn't know what to do. So I do the obvious by ignoring the problem. I wish I just said hi.
H A V E - Y O U - E V E R
Said "I Love you"?
^ yeap.
Given money to a homeless person?
^ Of course!
Smoked?
^ No. ( Yes in my dreams last night.)
Waited all night for a phone call?
^ Waiting many nights for a phone call.
M A N N E R S
Do you swear?
^ It's hard not to when you're in CJC?
You cook your own food?
^ Definitely. I'm a good cook ok! Those who tried my BROWNIES would die for another.
You like pepsi or coke?
^ Pepsi.
You own a cat?
^ NO! NEVER! (Sorry Min)
You spend your money ?
^ I have to. That's why it's called allowance.
Do you like to swim?
^ I've been swimming since like what, 2? Duh I love swimming!!
When you get bored do you call a friend?
^ Sometimes.
D O - Y O U - P R E F E R
Flowers or angels?
^ I have a soft spot for roses.
Gray or black?
^ BLACK
Color or black and white photos?
^ Colour please.
Hook up or love?
^ L o v e .
Sunrise or sunset?
^ The sunset is too beautiful.
M&Ms or Skittles?
^ I love chocolate.
Jazz or classic?
^ Classic. I HATE JAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Being hot or cold?
^ I've never really tried cold. (((:
Winter or Fall?
^ I love snow. It's uber beautiful!
Left or right?
^ Left
Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friend?
^ 10 acquintances who are all like best friends = 10 BEST FRIENDS!!
Sunshine or rain?
^ Rain. Love it's solemnity.
Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
^ BAILEYS!!!!!
Boys or girls?
^ I'd like 2 or more boys before the girl comes.
P E R S O N A L
Kissed someone in the past month?
^ No.
Have u ever wanted to die?
^ I refrain from such thoughts.
Have u ever thought of killing someone?
^ Yes. Many times.
Ever been in love?
^ Yes.
Thought about getting married?
^ Yes, haha many times too.
Want to have kids?
^ OBVIOUSLY!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE kids!!!
T H E - L A S T
Person u talked to on the phone?
^ Brendan Chai
Thing u eat/drink?
^ Drank plain water last.
number 2 >
01. Eyeliner or Mascara?
- eyeliner, can't live without it!
02. Disney films or gore films?
- Where's the thrill in disney films? I'd go gore.
03. Skirts or jeans?
- skirts.
04. Socks or leggings?
- Socks, low cut or ankle please.
05. Hoodies or jackets?
- jackets.
06. Heels or sneakers?
- HEELS ARE MY LIFE!
07. Straight or curly hair?
- Curly wurly!
08. Hoop or dangling earrings?
- Love both equally fine.
09. Side bangs or one lengthed?
- 1 length
10. Your fav colors:
- Gold, Black, Indigo, BRIGHT HOT RED.
11. Victoria Secret or Bath and Body?
- Vic's
12. Smoothies or lattes?
- Lattes man.
13. Diet or regular sodas?
- Regular ones tastes better.
14. Water or daquiris?
- Water please.
15. Diamonds or pearls?
- Kill yourself if you don't already know.
16. Marykate or Ashley Olsen?
- Neither.
17. This or That?
- That.
18. Ipod or cell phone?
- Cell.
19. Friends or family?
- Considering my family are like my friends, and my friends are like family, I choose not to answer. Ha.
20. Lip gloss or chapstick?
- Lipgloss. But usually I don't wear them.
21. Manicure or pedicure?
- Manicure.
22. Love or peace?
- Love.
23. Sunglasses or purses?
- SHADES ALL THE WAY. (I love you too purse!)
What you have:
[x] an MP3 player/ipod/anything like that
[x] tiffany's jewelry.
[x] computer
[] a cd player.
[] a stereo.
[x] a spice girl cd.
[x] Something Lace
[] a vogue magazine
[] a cosmo magazine.
[x] a teddy bear.
[] a build a bear.
[] an Aeropostale purse.
[] a hot topic shirt.
[] an aeropostale shirt.
[x] the mean girls dvd/vd
[] a TV in my room.
[x] diamond earrings
[x] a pearl necklace.
[x]a homecoming/prom dress
[x] a book.
[x] perfume.
[] g-unit sneakers.
[x] a black t-shirt.
[x] abercrombie shirt
[x] pink nail polish
[] AE or Aeropostal Pants
[x]A pink shirt
[x]More than 4 pairs of shoes
[]Bows
Girl Knowledge:
Do you know exactly where the blush goes?
- Yes. It goes on the higher cheeks & on the chin to add that sporty look.
Would you say you know how to put on make up?
- Ever since Sec 1, yes.
Do you know how to french braid?
- Sadly, my hands are like pig trotters so no.
Do you wash your face once a day?
- Even if I don't wanna, Mummy forces me to. For those who don't already know, my mum is a beauty therapist.
Do you use an eyelash curler?
- No, don't need it.
Do you use waterproof mascara?
- Yes, & lovin it.
How much do you pay for make up?
- $0.00. Mummy pays for them.
number 3 >
ARE YOU .
Sensitive : Yes I am.
Easily hurt : Depends on which aspect hurt is coming from.
Calm : Steady man.
Quiet : -Stares at everyone who knows me. YES I AM!
Choosy : When it comes to FOOD OR CLOTHES.
Active : I inherited my mum'a ADHD (Attention Disorder Hyperactive Defficiancy) genes.
Very shy : I won't even dare to look you in the eye!
Confident in yourself : I'm very shy, said already!
Brand-conscious : Oooh yes.
A good listener : < funny how that's exactly what my name means. Haha.
Easily bored : Very!
Outgoing : I'm very shy.
Open-minded : Haha. Am I open-minded?????????
An only child : NOPE. I have a brother who's turing to be a sweetie.
Happy at the moment : No, kinda irritated actually.
Tired : Yes, its 215am, I guess I have to be.
Playing any online games : If hitting the button with the alphabets on the keyboard is a game, then yes I'm playing a really fun game.
Good at chess : Suck at it.
DO YOU .
Believe in ''love at first sight'' : Yes.
Have someone you really care about : Yes, I have many. But sorry girls, Boris is still on top of the list.
Believe in love : Yes.
Ever cheated on a test : Ever?
Play the guitar : Yes, tried.
Play the piano : Since 3 years old.
Play the drums : Tried that too.
Like your life : I'm psyco-ing myself to do that.
Like school : YES!
Like dancing : Absolutely man
Like sweets : They keep me from falling asleep. But I don't want too many cos' it'll get too sweet.
Like travelling : EVERY BIT OF MY BODY!
Own an xbox/ps2 : Yes, share with my Bro.
Like SpongebobSsquarepants : It cracks me up.
Ride a bike : Rode Adrian's bike once. Determined to ride a bike soon.
Read Harry Potter : NEVER. That think stack of paper & words that mean blank?
Read a lot : NO!
Play basketball : Sec 2 & 3.
Play badminton : For leisure.
Play tennis : Been at it since Pri 3.
Play bowling : Yes, bowled alot with my Sec2 classmates! My royal family.
Swim : Definitely.
Ice-skate : Yes.
Watch disney channel : Sometimes for some shows.
Love movies : Yes
Like Oreo : Only the biscuit part.
Like chips : Not really.
Do the housework : When I feel like.
Love your friends alot : Yes, all are so dear to me.
Get more than 5 piercings : No. I'm content with the 2 piercings in each earlobe now.
Curse a friend : If that person just did something bad to me, like really bad.
Hug a stranger : I'm very shy larZ.
Sneak out at night alone : No, why should I? Parents are kinda liberal with me. & I'd rather be under the covers.
Further your studies overseas : YES YES YES PLEASE!
Try summoning a ghost for fun : Yes.
Try alcohol : Not try. Take.
Love someone whole heartedly : Yes.
Smoke : No, not intending to.
Hugged someone : Many!
Looked someone in the eye : Of course.
Did stupid things that finally made you embarrassed after : Yes, very!
Said sorry to someone : Yes.
Thank someone : Yes.
Loved someone who hurt you badly! : I guess so.
Ok that's all folks. I'm going to sleep now. Choir at 9am. I hope I can fall asleep easier than the past few days. The past few days, he's been flooding my mind. & I miss him ): Sorry for being such a stupid girl. I know I am a stupid girl. Give me much more more more time.
You're my fortunate accident, my Serendipity
& I'm lovin' it
01:07
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Saturday, June 03, 2006
There's not going to be a header today
Under the covers, she made her prayer & yearned for it to be granted. & then she started:
Dear GOD,
Thank you Lord, I Love You.
Amen.
I'm missing you, You're hating me, please don't hate me.
& I'm lovin' it
20:51
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Friday, June 02, 2006
I'm Boris hungry,
& I'm lovin' it
19:49
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& on the right,
is Samantha in a state of loonatism
Someone emailed this to me & it never fails to knock sense into me:
Have you ever wondered which hurts most? Saying something you wished you hadn't, or saying nothing & wishing you had? The most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid of telling someone you love him or her. If you do, they might break your heart. If you don't, you might break theirs. Your heart decides whom it likes & whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on it's own- when you least expect it to, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was to hard to handle? When we tell lies, it is when we are afraid. Of what we don't know, of what others will think, & what would be found out about us later. Life is all about risks & requires you to jump. Con't be a person who has to look back & wonder what they would have done, or could have done. Always do things you won't regret doing. Follow your heart, not your head. Life has its unpredectabilities. Keep up with it. Don't stay on the safe side when you know that the grass is much greener on the other. Dare to Love.
I woke up at 330pm yesterday. So now, I cannot sleep. It's only 120am. So I am going to do quizzes (:
001: Real Name - Samantha Nicholle Foo Shi-Yin. (Fu Xu Yin)
002. Nickname - Sam, SamFoo, SammyFoo, Yanny, Nicky, Nicko.
003. Single or taken - Single, but my heart's taken.
004. Zodiac Sign - Aries, & proud of it.
005. Male or Female - Female.
006. Elementary School - Henry Park Pri
007. Ipod - Nano, 2GB, White. :)
008. How many buddies on your list - I have none. I'm a lonely girl (:
009. Friendster name: Samantha Foo.
010. Hair Color - From black to different shades of dark brown. I didn't colour it.
012. Hair Long or Short - In the middle.
014. Eye Color - Black
015. Are you health freak - When I'm growing fatter.
016. Height - 161.5cm. Like please make me 165 at least!!!
017. Do you have a crush on someone - Yes.
018. Do you like yourself - Sometimes.
019. Braces? - NEVER!
020. Think you're awesome? - I am!
021. Piercings - On the ears.
022. Tattoo - I'd love a sexy one.
Your 'Firsts'
024. Surgery - 5, when I broke my arm. The scar still refuses to go.
025. First piercing - Kindergarten.
026. First best friend - Sherri Anne Bernadette Choo Hui Yi. Can you believe it?!
027. First Award - Haha, Gold for primary school relay category on sports day.
028. First Sport You Joined - TENNIS, & STILL LOVIN IT!
029. First pet - Fish.
030. First vacation - Australia? 3 years old.
031. First Concert - I performed in it, choir concert in sec 1. Or 2?
032. First love - I was too young to know what love is. But I'm falling now.
Favorites
033. Favorite movie - Currently? XMEN 3! Funny how I haven't watched it yet.
034. Favorite tv show - DRAKE & JOSH!!!
035. Color - Gold, indigo, black. The colours on my blog. And I also like RED!
036. Music - Pussycatdolls. Only their songs.
039. Drink - Mocha Frappachino from Starbucks.
040. Body part not on the face - Waist.
041. Cartoon - Haha, spongebob.
042. Favorite piece of clothing - Can I have many many?
043. Brand Of Clothing - Guess, Zara, Topshop.
044. What do you sleep with - A white T-shirt & Black shorts. Don't ask why.
045. Favorite School - Henry Park Primary School.
046. Favorite Animal(s) - I like my doggies. Fullstop.
047. Favorite Book - I don't read books, so maybe the Little Miss & Mr collection.
048. Favorite Magazine - Seventeen, Cleo & Hotstuff.
Currently
049. Eating - Nothing.
050. I'm drinking - Nothing.
052. I'm about to - Sleep.
053. Listening to - My dog's snores.
055. Waiting For - A someone who will never come.
056. Watching - My hands type.
057. Wearing - Pajamas shirt & school shorts (The old ones, they're nice to sleep in!)
Your Future
058. Want Kids - Yes, a pair of twins & maybe more.
059. Want to Get Married - Yes, then I'll get kids right.
060. Careers in Mind - Singer. But that's quite impossible, so Psycologist.
Which is better with the Opposite Gender
068. Lips or Eyes - Eyes.
069. Hugs or Kisses - Hugs. They just give the funny fuzzy feeling.(The truth? Never kissed. My lips are virgin (:)
070. Shorter or Taller - Taller, DUH!
072. Romantic or Spontaneous - Romance is a must have, Spontaneous adds bonus points.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms - Definitely the abs.
074. Sensitive or Loud - Sensitive.
075. Hook-up or Relationship - Relationship.
076. Sweet or Caring - Sweetly caring. Haha.
077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant - TROUBLE MAKER please.
Have you ever
078. Kissed a Stranger - No.
079. Drank bubbles - YES!! Haha, in sec 2. Super fun.
080. Lost glasses/contacts - Shades counted?
081. Ran Away From Home - Yes.
082. Broken a bone - When I was 5.
083. Got an X-ray - When I broke the bone.
084. Broken Someone's Heart - I guess I did to a few. I'm sorry!
086. Turned Someone Down - Those hearts I broke. But I never turned dates down (:
087. Cried When Someone Died - Yes.
088. Cried at school - A few times.
Do You Believe In
089. God - I'm doing my best to be a better catholic. Do I?
090. Miracles - Always.
091. Love at first sight - Yes I do.
093. Aliens - That's just ridiculous.
094. Magic - Sometimes?
095. Heaven - Definitely with a capital DEFINITELY!
096. Santa Claus - It's a fictional character a cannot get.
097. Sex on the first date - Yeah, like only when the snail learns to bark.
098. Kissing on the First Date - Only if the date would be made perfect with the kiss.
099. Angels - Yes.
Answer Truthfully
100. Is There someone You Want To be with
right now? - Boris.
Ok, next.
Let's see if I'm an angel or devil.
1) smoked
2) consumed alcohol [x]
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex [x]
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex [x]
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex [x]
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex [x]
8) watched porn [x]
9) bought porn
10) done drugs
TOTAL: 6
11) taken pain killers [x]
12) taken someone else's prescription medicine [x]
13) lied to your parents [x]
14) lied to a friend [x]
15) snuck out of the house [x]
16) done something illegal [x]
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone [x]
19) wished someone to die [x]
20) seen someone die
TOTAL: 8
21) missed curfew [x]
22) stayed out all night [x]
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself [x]
24) been to a therapist [x]
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair [x]
27) received a ticket
28) been in a wreck
29) been to a club [x]
30) been to a bar [x]
TOTAL: 7
31) been to a wild party [x]
32) seen the Mardi Gras
34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish [x]
37) wore arm bands [x]
38) wore t-shirts with band names [x]
39) listened to rap [x]
40) own a 50 cent CD
TOTAL: 5
41) dressed gothic
42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk [x]
44) dressed grunge
45) stole something [x]
46) been too drunk to remember anything [x]
47) blacked out [x]
48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbor [x]
50) had someone sneak into your room
TOTAL: 5
51) snuck into someone else's room [x]
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex
53) been to a concert [x]
54) dry humped someone
55) been called a slut [x]
56) called someone a slut [x]
57) installed speakers in your car
58) broke a mirror
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house [x]
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush [x]
TOTAL: 6
61) consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters [x]
63) cruised the mall [x]
64) skipped school [x]
65) had an eating disorder [x]
66) had an injury [x]
67) gone to court
68) walked out of a restaurant without paying [x]
69) caught something on fire
70) lied about your age [x]
TOTAL: 7
71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend [x]
73) cheated with someone [x]
74) got in trouble with the police
75) talked to a stranger [x]
76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
78) rode in the car with a stranger [x]
79) been sexually harassed [x]
80) been verbally harassed [x]
TOTAL: 6
81) met face to face with someone you met online
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight [x]
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight [x]
85) been to a fair [x]
86) been called a bad influence [x]
87) cursed [x]
88) prank called someone [x]
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex [x]
90) cheated on a test [x]
TOTAL: 8
91) cheated on homework [x]
92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex [x]
93) been pushed into a pool [x]
94) played pool [x]
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight [x]
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you [x]
97) had a crush on someone younger than you [x]
98) wear eyeliner [x]
99) skinny dipped
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt [x]
TOTAL: 9
Grand total: 67. Haha, Ok I thought it would have been more. But hey, I'm not that bad for a B3! Haha.
Ok, that's it. I'm done for now.
& I'm lovin' it
02:18
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Thursday, June 01, 2006
Please come back, I want you bad.
Sorry for being the jerk, I've learnt my mistake.
Its hell for me.
Its killing me.
I promise to be better.
Can't move on, I won't be true to myself.
Just let go,
scream.
& I'm lovin' it
17:22
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AAAAAHHHHHHHHH ITS JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!
MONEY MONEY IN MY POCKET!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I can't stand it! My miracle is taking 32194812735362 years to come.
@ !% !* ( !(, !^ !@ % ! !( % # !% !# % @ ! # !!. ( !$ % % $ @% !% @! @ ! $.
These things, I have to have:
> New sweater
> New shoes for school (esp PE)
> New phone, N6111 please
> New clothes (Tops & Shorts & Skirts)
> BF outing (KAROLYN GAN JIA YEEEEE THAT MEANS YOU)
> Boris
I woke up at 330 today. I've had my rest. I want to eat prata later with Claire & *Ahem & other people. I want to study but I'm hogging my lappy & the TV. My dad just came back home from KL. My dog just vomitted on the carpet (his bed). I just gorged myself with cup noodles, dumpling & fruit cake. I'm growing fat & poor. I'm a sad girl. I want my cheapthrill, I want my happy pill, I want my heart to heal.
Those mean expressions, they don't mean nothing
& I'm lovin' it
17:05
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