SAMANTHA FOO.
SMURFIE
1T10'06 2T10'07
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Friday, November 11, 2005
charming personality , scringing attitude
some white shirt
thats the present she;ll share with huizhen . the white blue down shirt at factory outlet store . one can only imagine . suave , really . him in that shirt and all . wow . her adraneline takes control . but she cant let that happen . for one , he;s younger . that should end it all for her , but no ! whats that ? maybe its her foolish cravings to talk back . her endless longings to make up , not out . those are those that caues the mindless adranel actions . and those are those that aimlessly wait for reconciliation . stupid girl , this one . she;s never going to revover that same old burning flame that lasted , hmm , more that it has been out . tse min said he;ll look like a prince charming . she took the words out of her mouth . and now , she;s stuck . and she only fantasizes . on that horseback he rides .
& I'm lovin' it
22:15
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Wednesday, November 09, 2005
grand slam classics
something bout that
so they climed rooftops for long talks , took a long train ride from pasir ris , messaged marathons , had dinner , crafted work in art lessons , braved through tough times together , share simillar passion for marine , bought apple juice and kaya bread - her favourite , when she had no appetite , passed notes in class , exchanging gifts with her name carved on it , were ever so ready to open up to each other .
intolerable cruelty
and that girl there isnt her . what struck her when she read that ? that she had instant waterfalls down her rocky cheeks ? she knows he did that because he had a crush on her . and not on her . how so , did her adrenal cause her glands to swell and well . how so did her heart beat pump faster with every milisecond ? as she read on , she was hoping it wasnt him , the one she didnt wanted to appear . and usually it wouldnt be . not in this case . she was suspicious of the text written . especially their passion . and finally , a happy birthday my friend . that she knew it was that him she had been talking about . and her emotions got the better of her . its not that she is in the wrong as she writes that entry , its just something about what she wrote that hindered her feelings . at times , she wondered if she her heart was cheating her feelings , but she reassured herself that she only had heart for another , and he was just a lost sheep from her flock , rebellious , not wanting to return . the question is then , this friendship . can she salvage ?
& I'm lovin' it
17:19
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to : jiawei
happy birthday
i know i have been real shy around you , contradicts from that message . but i dont know . i;ve braved up alot and prided down quite some . i dont know whats hindering this patch up . and i know its not that im the one holding back . but something tells me its something to do with your irritance from me . i guess i have pushed the limits for you huh . truthfully , i do get envious when she;s around . and when a funny comment is made of you or from you , i try my best not to make it known that i giggled . simply because i want to observe my place . but when you laugh at the things about me , i feel happy , because at least i know that to you , im not just some piece of furniture that you completely igonre . i;ve always treated you guys like my brothers , confided in and joked with you guys alot . especially you last time . i guess if this message were to be resummurised , it would be that i miss you , and i want to bring back what you;ve taken away from me - our friendship .
if you are here reading this , the message is not for you . she wants only one person to read it . and if he doesnt get to read it , which is forever never , then let it be there for as long as she permits .
& I'm lovin' it
16:50
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005
over cloud nine
devastation at first
as she made her way down school , she was wondering if they;d be at school too . she wasnt too sure . she reached at twelve thirthy . went to dover , drew money . she dabbled on the thought that they might be there . she hesitated . oh how she wanted to go in to check , but her legs kept walking . as she crossed the road , her mind was set straight on crossing the road and nothing else . well , when she looked ahead , a familiar but intimidating face appeared . just as the movies are , they walked pass each other . she didnt know about him , but she felt her heart drop thousands of feet , obeying the laws of gravity . but she held her head high , and kept walking . but that one glance made her lose her concentration . coincidentally or not , the song playing on her reliable ipod nano was a song that could , would , and had dampen her mood even further . she was at the frequent study room in her school , trying to do those supposedly at her finger tips math questions . but no , she couldnt even do one . it just sank into her that it really was over . no matter how much she turned to look out that window , he whouldt know what her heart wanted . utter disappointment , sheer devastation .
sugarrush
sometimes fate can really play a fool with someone insignificant like her . as they returned to school , went into that strategic place to study , she;d follow them in . she;d study with them . and most of all , she;d study with him . its common that jokes were cracked and fun was made . she;d never evade it , especially from them . as usual , she;d suffer the most from it . from him having intentions or her having designs , all these assumptions and makeups never seem to stop rolling in . but instead of feeling vengeful , she feels happy , delighted , and content . she likes it when this kind of fun is made somehow . it lifts her up . when she walks away , they;d go to her scripts and write fake messages of patching up , making out< . but even if it wasnt true , the thought of it makes her smile . then , when they;d mock at her , she glanced at him , to see his reaction . and today , for the first time , she noticed how he;d giggle at those lame jokes . she thought all along she was the only one who;d laugh secretly and minimumly at him . but this time she was wrong . and for once , being wrong was right . she left with a cheerful as ever heart . there was one thing she wanted to do but couldnt : scream .
the common delimma
and now she wonders and cracks her brain just thinking if she should get him something for tommorrow . his birthday . and if so , what to ? so she messaged ben . the 'mature' one . and to her awe , his replies were far from how he would message back . just by a snap of her fingertips , she;d know it was ed , the ego one . and they were having dinner . although she feared he would know she was getting something , she didnt really care if he did , just that if he did , what would he think . she just doesnt want to feel disappointed again . so if god may , please grant that all actions are in favour of her . she so hopes , she so prays . so god , if you may .
& I'm lovin' it
20:17
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005
she wants to go clubbing
she asks : lets go clubbing ?
& I'm lovin' it
20:55
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randoms >
funny , her mind is blanck .
she;ll try again .
randoms >
curses and swears
she can bang herself on walls , she really is empty . her mind was too active last night when her sub-consciousness couldnt beat her active as ever mind to siping into her slumber . now she is all drained out off the tiniest winiest detail in her brain that she cannot even lay down any randoms , which is supposed to be the lee way out from blogging things , she really is a failure . guess what she is ? yes , she is . the biggest loser .
ha
contradictory . irony . opposites .
& I'm lovin' it
20:54
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